My life as an Undergraduate,S01E00

Here I am, finally writing about my life again. I cannot remember exactly when I last did this. Maybe it was five years ago.

Back then I was young and naive. I had unrealistic fantasies about the future, about love, and about the person I might become. I procrastinated. I avoided problems. I took many things too lightly. Yet somehow, that was still one of the times I miss the most. Life was exciting. I was full of passion.

Later I tried to become better. I became president of the student union, joined activities, and won some awards in high school. Those things made me grow. They also gave me more people to compare myself with.

There was always someone better. Someone smarter. Someone more disciplined. Someone who seemed to know exactly where he was going. I had done things, but they never felt like enough. And when you think you are not good enough, enjoying life becomes almost inappropriate.

Good food tasted the same. Rest felt like a waste of time. Music, games, photography, and many things I used to like slowly lost their meaning. I was not really living my life. I was just keeping myself alive.

But this year, something changed in my mind.

I began to realize that there is not only one way to be successful. Excellence is important, but it is not everything. You might not be the best, but you can still be different.

So I started looking for things I truly cared about. For the first time, I thought seriously about doing something beyond the usual path. Maybe I can combine new media, technology, expression, and creativity. Maybe I can make something not just useful, but also cool. And who said cool things cannot be meaningful?

And now I am studying Network and New Media at NIT.

This is a new life. New city. New campus. New people. New things to do. A completely different way of living.

I still have many weaknesses. I still have not figured everything out. I still do not have the relationship, achievements, or certainty I once imagined. But I don’t care.

Let’s see how the story is gonna unfold